Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Becoming the person you want to be....

To be nobody but yourself - in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else - means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting.- EE Cummings, poet.

Becoming the person you want to be.....

Take a look at your priorities and your goals. Where did they come from? Are they the products of soul-searching, self-analysis, and careful planning? Or are they a reaction to pressures from other people? Did you find them within yourself or within the pages of a magazine? The answers to these questions are important because they tell you if the person you're becoming is someone you want to be.

Here's another way to look at a goal: do you want it, or do you just think you should want it? It's not easy to follow your own direction in life. But it's more possible than you may think. Question everything. Every priority in your life needs to justify why it's there. If you can't come up with a good reason that actually comes from YOU, maybe it doesn't belong.

I struggle with becoming the person I want to be....some days I feel like I get it and my life is on track, the next I feel like a little girl lost in a big world. My comfort comes from a loving family who helps me along the way. My mom, sister and I have a bond that is amazing, inspiring and very special. Our bond isn't unusual but I don't think there are many people that are as lucky as we are to have such a special relationship.

I know this is all in part to the fact that our mother raised us the way she did and that her mother raised her the way she did. Today is my Grandma's birthday - which makes me think of her and smile but have a heavy heart because she passed away over 4 years ago. Her beautiful soul touched any one she met and some of my fondest memories are cooking with her as a child.

I know she is looking down on me and my family now......and thinking
OH BUT..... ;)

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

LOVE IT!!! She is definitely thinking "oh, but!" Love you Gramma!

Anonymous said...

LOVE IT! You are soooo right. She would be saying, oh but! Love to you Gramma!! Miss you like craaazy.