Its been a while and its time for CHANGE!

It has been quite a while since my last post on this blog. I started one to track my pregnancy with Kason and everything after becoming a family of three - although I haven't been good about regular updates there either!

Today it hit me like a ton of bricks that I need some MAJOR change in my life. I am not living like I want to be and I'm not taking care of myself! Some self thoughts this morning:

* I'm the only one that will 100% care about ME and my life.
  

* I get so caught up in why others didn't respond how I think they should and I just need to focus on me and my life and taking care of that. I allow others to effect how I'm feeling, making me depressed or upset or happy. I need to find myself and only allow myself to effect my feelings. 

* Fitness needs to be a part of my life. I'm not taking care of myself. I have had time to adjust to work and now its time to adjust to making working out a priority and getting it done.

* I love wine...it is a part of me. And when I drink I tend to over drink. I have the toughest time with having one glass if I have one in the house. I spend a day thinking about not drinking and still have wine that night. That sounds to me like a problem.

So my goal is to lose 10lbs in the months of Feb/March.....I am going to be doing the 30 day Shred and trying to fit in as much walking as I can whether its on the treadmill or outside and I am committed to eating healthy and cutting back on my wine intake. I had set a goal for myself financially to only get 2 boxes a month and I think that is my large goal but I would like it to actually only be 1 a month. This is going to be really tough for me I know - but BABY STEPS. I know without this one goal I will not make my weight goal.
So here we go.....