Another Friday!

Today is Friday, and the end of another work week for me. It got me to thinking about how many people in the world, just live each day thinking or dreaming of another....waiting, hoping, wishing to be somewhere else, or just dredging through there day not really listening or hearing or thinking about anything.

I know myself I have been stuck in this rut many times before of just getting by. Just passing time. Personally I feel this is no way to live life. Life is meant to be enjoyed and every moment, every connection, every feeling cherished and felt.

I am guilty of often trying to turn myself off and to go through my day numb - because I am an extremely emotionally charged person. Someone who feels happiness to the greatest magnitude out of a tiny gesture. Someone who feels love all encompassing from a hug or a smile or a message of a loved one. I think to truly live - you must have and feel all emotion - happiness, sadness, love etc. But sometimes I find my emotional being to be too much. I love hard but I hurt hard. I can go from truly happy to truly hateful in 5 seconds. Sometimes at the end of the day - I lay in bed feeling like I have run a marathon and have nothing left. Absolutely exhausted and drained because of all that I feel and think.

I wish I could find balance within myself - but would that be changing who I am???? Maybe I am the lucky one, the person who feels so much.....I know a lot of people who just don't have that, or have it but in a negative way. I know the answer to all this is loving myself and feeling balance within, because then I would be able to experience and feel all that I need to without having the emotional drain that it causes me now.

But that leads into another question. How do you find balance within? How do you love yourself? This is something I struggle with....and it partly has to do with body issues I have had since I was very young. I'm working on it - and although it's still a work in progress, I am much closer to being able to completely love myself.....

And isn't that the ultimate goal, to love yourself and spread love and kindness to others....that is beyond everything else the way that I want to approach each day.

Sooo my new personal mantra:

Live with Passion
Love Deeply
Laugh Often